Wow, two post in a night, maybe this is why I cannot sleep. I have a seven hour drive tomorrow back south to Philadelphia.
I have to say this trip to upstate New York has been relaxing. With my past put behind me, my present understood, and my future kind of mapped out, I have clarity. Its amazing how being in a simple location can allow your mind to think and contemplate. I've learned a few things while here:
The past is the past. After receiving a box of my belonging from when I was 21 I realized how much we change over the years. It was like opening up a time capsule. Numerous floppies with all my writings from college, I need to find a computer with a floppy drive so I can see whats on them. I'm curious to see if I was ever a decent writer. A girlfriend in college, the one who called me, slippers somehow ended up in the box. A paintball gun, a love note, and even pictures from high school that I forgot about.
The present is what it is. My current situation is a culmination of the past and cannot be changed. The only way to change the present is to constantly work on the future.
The future, well (sigh), is filled with nicotine patches, non-alcoholic beverages, and attending a university again. I'm still fuzzy about the future but hell, I am not psychic. So we shall see.
So at 3AM when most people my age are drunk, hooking up with random people, or having sex with their partners, I am typing. Lol. But then again, I am at my dad's house and am content. Carpe Diem.
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