Francis, A Mobile Blog

As I'm out on my deck, relaxing from a long morning of landscaping, the bird are chirping, and people are mowing their lawns. I learned today that women don't need fancy things or dinners, they want you to do a little work so they can sit and feel at peace. I know my hard, sweaty gift of a flower bed and newly landscaped yard will allow both my mom and aunt to smile and feel relaxed for months to come. I probably will never have a lot of money. But I know by doing small things that mean a lot to a woman's peace will mean way more then a fancy car or dinner and not really caring about their inner peace.

So I am out here whistling to my birds a call that I would whistle to these chicklets that nested next to where I would smoke. Suddenly two of the chicks (now grown) fly up to the chair my feet are on and drop me two worms. Whistle my call, then fly away. There's a reason why I am nicknamed Francis after the saint.

Animals feel peace around me and are not afraid. So as I quickly and rudely put the worms in the flower bed, I still appreciate the gift and after two years, still being remembered. People say animals don't have long memories and no emotion, but after worms being left for me as a present, I would like to argue that belief. Perhaps I'm not such a bad person after all. I may have things to work on and a heart that is still foolishly seeking out its lost love, but deep down, I'm kind and sincere. Thank you birdies, but your worms should be in the ground :-)

Cell Phone Blog (Part 2)

Cont'd....... succesfully beat her current illness. So with that said, I am sitting outside on the deck alone, enjoying the much needed coolness of the night. It'd be great to have someone just sitting here with me at my moms house. I realized that when u move out on your own away from your parents, u find yourselfself often alone and existing in the monotony that is life. I miss having a companion. Someone to sit down and just talk for hours because u enjoy each other's company and conversation. I'm alright with not having one right now but doesn't mean I don't want one. I'm content, relaxed, enjoying the fresh air, feeling accomplished after planting my garden and my aunts flower bed today. I knew there was a reason why I am not out getting drunk with friends at the bars. Its because of how I feel now. Relaxed, content, productive, and accomplished for the day. Good night, this really was randomness.

Cell Phone Blog (Part 1)

Blogging from the phone again. Planting my grape vines and vegetable garden today was a lot of work but relaxing. It was 90 today and my already tanned self soaked even more sun up. I've missed having my hobbies. I realized not being able to do your hobbies and take your mind of things will make u go crazy. After spending the day with my aunt who is on taking chemo almost daily, hair fallen out, worn down physically and mentally, I feel relaxed. Sitting and talking with her comforts me because with how focused I am on bettering myself, when I am around her, I want to better her and perhaps help her recover. To see someone that's seems insane but is fun t0 be around, who always laughed and was everywhere at once, become void of desire and laughter is disheartening. Now days I am the only person to motivate her and able to make her laugh. I feel that if I can make her laugh more, it might help her successful

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I don't know a damn thing about anything anymore. I've never felt more frustrated about everything in my life. Living with no work to be found, bored outta my mind, I absolutely hate it. I think I might just hop in my truck and just drive. Drive anywhere that comes to mind. Impulsive and spontaneous. Pure adventure.

My mood the past few months has been that of Free Bird by Lynard Skynard.



Who knows, this birdie has been let outta his cage. Maybe I will just go and travel, see, learn, think. Any companionship is welcomed. I will be taking all applicants into consideration.

A Good Movie - Wall-E

Was supposed to play tennis this afternoon but things don't always go as planned. Was browsing through movies to buy and I totally forgot about this one. If you haven't seen it, you need too. Its a cute love story but still has undertones into a more philosophical reality that could face humans one day. Too bad I wasn't looking yesterday, Earth Day.

Wall-E